On the wrong path

Actually, deep down we know what is good for us and what is not.

Unfortunately, our belief patterns and constructs give us a very strong headwind, causing us to deviate from our course. At least, that's how it was for me...

After a very "good," dutiful, and straightforward life with a high school diploma and an apprenticeship as a travel agent, I spent five months in Granada in my early 20s learning Spanish. For the first time in my life, I felt truly alive. My heart was filled in this international, easygoing, and cosmopolitan environment. It was as if I had breathed "fresh air" for the first time in my life.

But after 5 months, the easy life was over, because after all, "you" have to make something of your life.

And so, after this period of vitality, the "seriousness of life" came crashing back down. I began studying tourism and business administration in Munich as the logical next step, even though the idea of having to sit locked in an office from 9 to 5 was already terrifying.

My mind rejoiced at this sensible decision, but my soul wept quietly!

So, while I dutifully concentrated on my studies, my soul kept trying to send me messages that I was on the wrong path. But I couldn't really hear them at the time. So it had to become clearer to get me to rethink or wake up...

The wake-up call of my soul

And my soul became very clear!

She sent me the diagnosis of breast cancer when I was 24 so that I would finally listen to her.

And with that, she had my full attention - and that of those around me too!

The illness was not only a wake-up call, but also gave me the most loving time with myself.

Because during this time it was all about me and about me being alive and getting healthy again.

I was free of expectations, comparisons, and self-judgment (including from those around me). I just lived for the sake of living. I was present in the here and now and celebrated life.

And most importantly, I was good to myself! That was absolutely not the case before the illness.

Confronted with the possible finiteness of my life, my dreams returned, the things I actually wanted to experience in life. I wanted to get out into the wide world and experience the lightness I had before in Spain.

And that was my driving force, which never made me doubt that I would get well again.

And so, even during chemotherapy, I went to every party I was physically capable of, went to the Cologne Carnival, and took weekend trips to Milan, London, and other places. And immediately after chemotherapy and radiotherapy, I headed abroad. First, for a summer season as a guest relations manager at the Robinson Club Pamfilya in Turkey, and then for an unforgettable year of internship in Quito, Ecuador.

But the programming was still too strong...

After my recovery and an indescribable year in Ecuador full of adventure and pure life, I returned to Munich and immersed myself in my student life, gradually returning to normal life. And the longer I stayed healthy, the more my old thought and behavior patterns took over again. Despite the realization that life is finite.

And so, a good five years after my illness, I found myself almost exactly where I was before my illness: dissatisfaction with my job, my relationship, my financial situation, and my life situation in general!

I then made another attempt to escape and emigrated to Costa Rica. But escape is never a good thing, and so this time was doomed to failure, too. I returned to Germany more frustrated than before. I brought all my old shit with me!

We cannot run away from our issues, we can only face them.

Today I know: As long as we don't consciously say goodbye to all the obstructive rubbish we think about ourselves and life, all that crap will just keep coming back to us!

As long as we don't start cleaning up inside and transforming all the hindering programming, beliefs, and constructs, we cannot change our lives sustainably!

Because we alone hold the key to change! Nothing external. No matter how many times we move, change relationships, or change jobs, that's the key!

What matters is what we think about ourselves and life.

As within, so without - the universal law of attraction is at work - always!

As sad as it is to realize, my self-destructive self-image had obviously not fundamentally changed as a result of my illness.

And this was clearly reflected on the outside.

My WHY to change this programming

It took a WHY that was more important than me to courageously face my disastrous self-image and clear it up!

And that "why" was ultimately my son. He is truly a gift from heaven, because according to the doctors, the cancer treatment would have prevented me from having any more children.

My wonderful son remains my greatest inspiration, mirror, and teacher to this day! He has always "mercilessly" put his finger on the wound to show me where I truly stand in terms of self-love and trust in myself and life.

Because if your relationship with yourself isn't right, there's automatically going to be discord and stress with others! And there was stress with my son! And that always happened when I wasn't at peace with myself! (which, unfortunately, was often the case!)

My greatest wish was always to be a relaxed and strong mother to him, and so I did everything I could to finally transform my relationship with myself from one of self-judgment, self-deception, and the associated frustration to one of "love."

My inner journey began...

The journey to myself

I left no stone unturned and devoured countless specialist books, attended various personal development seminars and completed two intensive coaching training courses.

In addition, I have sought support for myself in the form of family constellations, hypnosis sessions, DNA healing, inner child work, channelings, human design & astrology readings and much more.

I have worked with my Gene Keys and have been able to illuminate and accept my shadow issues.

And currently, as a prospective Kabbalah coach, I am diving deep into the connections of life and learning how we can resolve our blockages and transform them into talents.

Everything was an important piece of the puzzle on my path, always centered around the same question: How can I finally stop running in this vicious cycle over and over again and instead learn to love and accept myself? And how can I stop acting against myself and finally find peace, stability, and joy with myself and life?

It was a long process, and along the way, I had to face many inner demons and unpleasant truths. During this "inner housecleaning," I discovered many of my belief and behavior patterns and was able to identify and resolve blind spots.

I have understood the "rules of life" and the strength and power that lies within me.

I was able to recognize how and why I sabotaged myself and how this is reflected in my life.

And I've learned to appreciate my shadow sides, because they are an important signpost. When they appear, they're a sign that I'm not currently in (self-)love, that I'm not listening to my soul's voice, but instead surrendering to the voice of my ego and fear.

Today, I stand by myself and know that I am "right," exactly as I am! And I know that life is always FOR me. This has unleashed incredible strength and confidence within me. And that's the basis for making decisions based on love and trust, rather than fear. And so we follow the path of our soul rather than the ego.

My knowledge for you

And all my knowledge from my training (more info here)I'll share my insights and learnings from my long journey with you. You'll be given "shortcuts," so to speak, so you can avoid frustrating detours on your journey to yourself and start living life NOW.

On this journey you will discover what a wonderful, unique and powerful being you are.

You come into contact with your soul voice, recognize the cosmic connections and how we are all carried by life.

By connecting with yourself and life, you can make your decisions out of love rather than fear, which will automatically lead you to contentment, health, abundance and joy.

You can go YOUR way clearly, strongly, courageously and self-determined and take YOUR LIFE into your own hands to make it the life that you really imagine and desire.

So you release the handbrake that you were previously using to bump through life.

So that at the end of your life you can happily say: "I have lived truly, enjoyed my life, savored it to the fullest and lived my dreams!"

I am happy to accompany and support you on this journey!

Your Silke